Two souls met by God at different points in life for diffferent reasons
by Amerie
WHere do I start. My love came into my life seven months ago. Rocked my world in ways I didnt believe. Made me feel like no man had ever made me feel before- before and after our bodies met physically. I am attracted to this man in every way. We were not naive to the fact tha differences would occur, because of our significant age difference. WE knew what to expect,but didnt care because it wasnt intended to last. What started off as to strong personalities playing with eachothers mind turned into something more. Now that I have had such a man come into my life and make such a powerful statement while there, I dont want to know what any other kind of love feels like but his. Problems come with family matters- because what family thinks actually does matter.Especially for us. We are both really close to our mothers and I think that another thing we relate on strongly. Also he has a son. My moter once told me to never date a man who has a kid- they'll always put that kid before you" I was introduced to his son months ago but only recently got to spend a whole day with him. He is a decent kid, and I could tell he was use to having his daddy all to himself. Now he wants to know who is this lady stealing my daddys attention, and his grandma wants to know who is this lady stealing my sons attention from my grandbaby.Its all a mess when family gets involved. I am only 19 so in no way do I intend to play "family" with a child whom I did not bare from my own womb. Sure he is an easy kid, and I love the relationship he has with his father, but to all of sudden play the role of "step mommy"- would not be genuine on my part. My love does not expect for me to do any such thing, but this family thing is stressing the both of us out. When we are together nothing is breaking up our bond. When we are apart is what I fear. What negative thoughts would they put in his head about me. I wont deny that his feelings for me are undeniable strong, but should my lovebe obligated to sacrifice his happiness to live by his sons' standards or his moms standards. For goodness sake he's only a child and a connection like the one we have is hard to find. I feel lime his whole life he has neglected his happiness- and to see how happy I make him is a reward in itself,but how do you get through the judgement of people who are important to both parties?
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