Hurt and Confused
by Ali
My ex was cheating on me with another woman for seven months before he left me for her. I had no idea what was even going on until about a month after our seperation she was the one who told me! This woman is married with two children and now he's with her. Yet he still says he loves me, when he looks at me I can see it in his eyes. We're trying to be friends but it hurts so much. But everytime I try to get away he flips out and calls me millions of times until I answer and get sucked back in. It's still hard to believe that someone who wanted to spend the rest of their life with me would do something like this, and yet they tell me they regret it and they're sorry. To add insult to injury this woman is...well I feel that I am so much better than her in everyway and he's admitted he gave up the best thing he had in his life. I don't understand any of it, I feel like we're still in a relationship the way we talk and act with each other minus the intimacy, because I could never do that to someone else no matter how much I hate them. One of the hardest parts is that minus what happened we are so good together. Everything's so easy and natural and I've never been able to find a connection with anyone the way I have with him. It's so frustrating, I don't want to get back together with him. I just wish I could have some clarity.
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