How i feel !

by Shonny
(Stokes Valley, New Zealand)

I believe there is not always a bond between mother and daughter for instance, my mother and me. I was bought up with my mum, her being an alcoholic and her telling me that my blood brother died because of my dad, which is not true of course. There is 4 different dad's in our family. She brought violence into our family, she use to date other alcoholic males that she found in the pub that she worked in. She also was once abusive to us, i remember one day when i walked into the kitchen and she had a kitchen knife up to one of my older brother's throat. She slept around, A LOT. Still to this day, she still sleeps around, a lot of people have given her the name 'Whore' , which in my case is true. She let CIFS take me and my sister and 4 brothers away from her at a very young age, we were put separated and far away from each other all over the north island with family's we did not know. Now that we are all older and can stand up for ourselves we do not take any shit from her. Me and my little brother live with my mum now, we are a lot older, me 17 and my brother 12. He is never here though as mum's too busy with males from the internet to take him to school so i make him stay with his nana who lives around the corner from his school. Also i want him to stay there as well because my mum she says she doesn't get any child support for us so why should she look after us and feed us. To me this is disgusting and i actually don't know what to do about it. I've asked a lot of people for advise but they don't know what to do about it really. As i have so much more to say i'll end it now with my conclusion, NO i think there is not always a bond good or bad !!!!